I finally get settled into something Im happy with and the whole thing gets blitzed. And the timing of it is terrible, a week before Im due back at college and he springs that on me. Im beginning to think that men really are a waste of time and effort.

I finally seem to be getting somewhere in my emotional process that is a happy place to be. I'm a lot calmer and dont cry as much anymore, the occasional little cry does me. Ive found someone who I'd like to try and get close to but am not 100% how to do it.

Kerry xx

And Im going to see Lee Evans 2morrow WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Hello peeps,
This is aimed at 2 ppl on my Flist (u know who u r XD) I thought the whole PORNSTAR thing had died down but noooooooooooooooo HtA has started it again. If it hasn't died down by the end of November there will b hell 2 pay.

On a lighter note TORCHWOOD Rox!!! The plot lines r cool, the characters are a mixed bunch and Captain Jack is teh SEX.

Kerry xx

Here's one of my first ever crushes. He's 31 now but in most of these pics he's about 15 (I'm a pervert I know)

http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Eerie%20Indiana/YAYYYY.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Eerie%20Indiana/Cutiepie.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Eerie%20Indiana/dx36.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Eerie%20Indiana/dx33.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Eerie%20Indiana/dx26.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Eerie%20Indiana/dx13.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Eerie%20Indiana/dx11.jpg

This is more recent

http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Eerie%20Indiana/jm5.jpg

I don't know his age in this one but he's still hot

http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Eerie%20Indiana/Jm.jpg

1. Name:
2. Age/Birthday:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Rapper/Artist:
7. Favorite Book/Comic Book:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Favorite TV Show:
10. Favorite Video Game/Board Game:
11. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?
12. Would you give me a kidney?
13. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
14. If you could change anything about your current life, would you?
15. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you

1. Name:
2. Age/Birthday:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favorite Movie:
5. Favorite Song:
6. Favorite Band/Rapper/Artist:
7. Favorite Book/Comic Book:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Favorite TV Show:
10. Favorite Video Game/Board Game:
11. Do we know each other outside of Livejournal?
12. Would you give me a kidney?
13. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
14. If you could change anything about your current life, would you?
15. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you

Here are some of the pics taken on the day of the 10th birthday.

This one was taken a few days after the party
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Misc%20Shit/StephenGrumpy.jpg

These were taken on the day
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Misc%20Shit/StephenBadDay.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Misc%20Shit/RebeccaandStephen.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Misc%20Shit/NickyandRosie.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Misc%20Shit/MeStephenandSara.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Misc%20Shit/MeandKarl.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Misc%20Shit/MeandJoyce.jpg
http://i17.photobucket.com/albums/b74/KNicholas/Misc%20Shit/JoyceandPeter.jpg

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Only repost if you can read the above

Was Lancaster Help the Ageds 10th birthday yesterday, and it was brilliant. There was a party, nibbles, cake and best of all alcohol. Photographers from the Guardian turned up and a photographer from Help the Ageds magazine came to visit. Photos were taken and will appear in both YAY.

Had a smashing time with Nicodemus and Synkende, although there was much calling of names. All in jest of course, although I will continue to stress my point I AM NOT A PORNSTAR.

Now where was I, oh yes drank and ate a lot (there goes the diet), the cake was cute before it was massacred. Got given prezzies. A bottle of Bucks Fizz and a box of Belgan Biscuits. Also a card to say thanx for all the help.

Overall a great day and I'm going to stop boring everyone now and get on with something very important.

Kerry xx

*Wanders off to play on Playstaion*

If there is someone on your friendslist who makes your world a better place just because they exist and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet

How obessed are u with ur looks?

You Are a Skin Deep Sweetheart

You may be supermodel gorgeous or a plain Jane. It really doesn't matter, because you're confident and secure. You don't go out looking like a slob, but you are low maintenance. You have better things to worry about than whether your nails are the right shade!

Is he into you?

Hmmm... Maybe He's Interested!

He seems to be giving you mixed or muted signals Which may mean you've been giving him the wrong messages When he pauses to notice you, give him a little more attention. A little encouragement may go a long way with this guy!

Awwwww only maybe

Are u a good girl or a BAD girl?

You Are a Normal Girl

You are 60% Good and 40% Bad Sure you've pulled some bad girl stunts in your past. But these days, you're (mostly) a good girl.

What Goddess are you?

You Are Aphrodite!

A total shining star with a ton of admirers And no wonder: you live life to the fullest! When things get bad, you can easily take off to a happier place But occasionally, you need to deal with problems head on

And lastly

What colour rose are you?

You Are a White Rose

You represent youthfulness and purity. Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Am bouncing around with glee at the moment. Object of my affection has been extra chatty, am finally finding out more about him. He's finally opening up to me about his past and his loves (not the romantic kind though, he says he's not quite ready to discuss that part with me yet but maybe soon. YAY)
John has been affectionate which scares me as I like him only as a friend, he's trying to get me to go out with him despite me letting him down gently 3 times already (points for trying though.)
Robin (works delivery bloke) is setting me up with an 18 year old friend of his. So life is getting better steadily.

This is me signing off after another complelty inane ramble through my lovely week.

Kerry xx

I've started making dolls of ppl I know, I make them through eLouai's Dollmaker. If anyone would like me to make a doll of them just let me know.

Here's a couple of the ones I made earlier


This is me.


This is Stephen (crap doll but I did my best.) It's sooooo hard to make a doll of Tony but I'll try really hard. (Oh and probably only people who know me or him will actually know who Stephen is :P)

My bosses at HMP are really professional *rolls eyes in a sarcastic fashion* one day they say they need me to work and the next they are telling me I'm not needed. At least my volunteering position is on a simple enough timetable.

*LE SIGH* Life would be so much easier if I didn't fall for people so easily. Don't get me wrong I love working in the vicinity of this person but he's sending me very mixed signals. One minute he's standing close and sort of flirting (in his strange way) and the next he's elbowing me in the head (not intentionally) He knows I like him and he is great about it but I feel like he's a bit on edge sometimes. He blames it on somebody else and that leaves me feeling slightly more comfortable.

Oh well that's my moan over, sorry if I've gotten on anybody's nerves.

Kerry xx

Heres the memesque goodness

1.Kerry
2.28 October 1988
3.Lancaster
4.Being with friends
5.I Wish I Was A Punk Rocker (With Flowers In My Hair)- Sandi Thom
6.Of course hunny
7.You're entries are brill
8.I'm a certifiable nut case
9.You know I am..............*le sigh*
10.At work sadly enough
11."Every night comes to an end, every broken heart can always mend. So put your feet on solid ground, and know that a light as bright as ours won't go out."
12.Autumn
13.Yep at the Grammar School last year
14.Indeedie doodie
15.I have crap taste in men

PLUS
1.A true friend to those who need you
2.My smile and my soul (of all things)
3.Okie dokie
4.Here they are

Here we go. The answers to the meme questions. Maybe juat a little bit too much info but I don't care *Pftttttttt* :)


1. NAME ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
I have one on my chest from when I had the chicken pox and wouldn't stop scratching it

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Nothing really, just a single lonely Simpsons poster

3. WHAT DOES YOUR MOBILE PHONE LOOK LIKE?
It's small and red with a row of silver buttons down the front

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Owt

5. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE?
A pretty Anime piccie of me that a friend did from and old photograph

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
A hug

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
My Grandad, who sadly passed away last September

8. WHAT TIME WERE YOU BORN?
8:55 a.m

10. WHAT ENDED YOUR LAST RELATIONSHIP?
The bastard was seeing someone else. So it ended with a smack round the back of the head from me to him

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Yes I do, all the time

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Can't rememer

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
Narcisse by Chloe

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Dark hair and blue eyes

15. DO YOU LIKE PAINKILLERS?
I'm constantly taking some kind of painkiller :D

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
Coffee.

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Hot and Spicy meat feast

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
A huge bar of Galaxy Promises. The one with the dark chocolate bits in it

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
Really angry, hmmmm my Nanna. She caught me with *gasp* a boy in my room LOL

20. DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
GCSE French. I can speak bits and pieces of other languages, i.e. Spanish, Italian and Japanese

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
The aforementioned tool bench

22. DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
Romantically? Yes I do

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Nope, but I can do a gross trick with my index and little fingers on my left hand

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
I'll wear anything

25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
I don't have one, as I'm scared of getting behind the wheel

27. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF MARRIAGE?
I approve of it

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
I'd fall anyway, it's in my nature

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
I used a letter to tell the person I care about how I felt. I'm too shy to say it, also I find that being there to help throught the bad times also helps.

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
13 (it's my lucky number)

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Either

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST OFTEN?
13

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Liars, cheats and thieves

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF ENGLAND?
Twice

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Slash, music and chocolate (just to name a few)

36. WHAT WAS THE LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
A sketch pad off the guy I like *blushes furiously*

37. FIRST JOB?
The volunteering position I have now. I did once work in a cafe but I couldn't stand it so I chose to ignore it's existance.

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Nope

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Nowt

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
A confidence transplant

41. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN IN LOVE?
Once and he was a bastard

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
My smile get a lot of compliments

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Nothing

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Johnny Depp naked tied up with a bow would be nice. But failing that just a pic will do :p

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
None, I dislike small children

46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Yes, I do it at least once a week

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVOURITE?
My ring finger coz I can wind my Nanna up by wearing a ring on it

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
Thursday this week

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
It's Ok

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE VEGETABLE?
Broccoli

52. ANY BAD HABITS?
I bite my nails, I swear and I drink. Oh and I have very little confidence in myself

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Bucks Fizz *avoids objects being thrown in my direction*

54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Nope

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
Nope (I'm a good girl :))

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Not to me, if someone is a nice person then I tend to get on well with them regardless of their looks.

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE YOUR ANGER?
Crying, shouting, swearing and attacking things

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
I have 3, my Nanna's, my Mum's and my Dad's

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
Yep, I do

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVOURITE TOY AS A CHILD?
My tool bench bought for my first birthday

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
56. I'm sad and counted them :P

62. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
I'm renound for it

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
Nope

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
A sense of humour and a decent personality. Good looks are a bonus

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Don't really have any. Kezza (hate it), Sunshine (Rebecca gave me that one) and "Come over here and help me" (don't ask)

67. WHAT IS THE MOST PAIN YOU HAVE EVER EXPERIENCED?
Burn to the side of my leg. Haven't yet broken anything but have come close a few times

68. DO YOU UN-TIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Nope, can't be arsed

69. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SPILLED?
Water (at work)

71. WHAT'S THE LAST FURRY THING YOU TOUCHED?
Rusty

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVOURITE COLOURS?
Black

73. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS/SINGERS?
Elton John, Dusty Springfield, Meatloaf and many many more

74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
None (yet)
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Don't mind

76. WHO ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
The sound of the cat scratching the hell out of the furniture :)

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
A ham sandwich (with lots of mayo Mmmmmm :P)

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Stephen

79. WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Presense or personality

80.FAVOURITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
"The Drugs Don't Work" by The Verve (personal reasons) or "Lovelight" by Dusty Springfield (Don't know why, it just makes me think)

81. FAVOURITE THING TO HATE:
Being tired or bossed around

82. FAVOURITE DRINK:
Tea (or alcohol)

83. FAVOURITE ZODIAC SIGN:
Scorpio, Virgo or Leo

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SPORT?
Swimming

85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOUR?
Naturally, sandy blonde. Currently, dark brown/ black

86. EYE COLOUR?
Blue

88. SIBLINGS?
None, (2 step siblings tho)

89. FAVOURITE MONTH?
October, September

90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Love it

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Lazytown

92. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Any day really

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Yep

94. SUMMER OR WINTER
Winter, so pretty

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Huggles

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Either

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Hmmmm good question

98. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Anybody normal

99. BIGGEST FEAR?
Spiders and being alone

100. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
I don't think so